Because it's hard to say good bye
2 years, 4 months By Allyson
In: Allyson Hibbard
So, I haven't posted in awhile. It seems like a really long time. This is partially because we had a lot of stuff going on and I wasn't sure what to say. What would be appropriate? What wouldn't be appropriate? These things are not always my strength. I often put my foot in my mouth, or say more than I should and then regret it later. Ha ha. That's why this blogging thing is so dangerous and challenging for me! Ha ha.
So here's some of my thoughts....
We live a life that is short on this earth. A blink of an eye and it can be over. You enjoy one another when in company of them. And when they are gone forever you realize just how much you loved them and how incredibly difficult it is to say good bye. How incredibly difficult it is to see all the people around you effected by that one single person, or is effected by their sudden absence.
I've been wrestling with these things. Not only about one person, but about the other people in my life as well, and how important they are to me. And I've been thinking about how quickly life can pass you by and before you know it years have passed and you wonder what have I been doing all of this time? And should this person leave me, and go to heaven what ever will I do? How will I cope? How will I ever stop crying and feel okay again?
And I've been doing a lot of prayer and conversations with God on the way to work and on the way home from work, and while I'm laying in bed listening to the sounds of my family breathing deeply in their slumbers. But I can't seem to find sleep. Its funny when one person leaves, it seems like you suddenly remember all the people who have left you.
God heal the broken hearts and the ones who wonder how will I ever stop crying.
Allyson
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